Growing up in an abusive household, and entering into two different abusive relationships has shaped a lot of how I view myself and how I view others. While my abuser in this song seems to be one person, it is truly a vague combination of all the abuse I have witnessed/experienced in my life thus far. I have recently come to terms with most of my experiences with abuse and assault, and am now realizing that my abuse does not define me. I am not my abuse, I am not thankful for my abuse but I am stronger now than I ever was. I am no longer afraid to speak my mind, and I will do my best to share my stories and let others know they are not alone.
lyrics
Your jokes weren't very funny,
I didn't appreciate you begging me time and time again.
We have shed these layers,
We are stronger each day
And if I ever see your face again, I will hold no fucking mercy.
For the nights locked out in the cold,
The tight closed fist you raised with fast pace,
and the knives you held with such disgrace
I now carry with, just in case.
I am not helpless,
I am worth more and I will never be told orders again.
I want you dead,
I want you fucking dead.
credits
from Demo,
released February 20, 2014
This song is for my sister, Ashley Galindo who helped me regain my strength countless times during my childhood while we struggled to survive in a toxic environment
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